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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

After the Dr's Visit

Well, I'm allowed to go up on my thyroid hormone, however, I just have an instinctive feeling that is not the problem. My thyroid was fairly normal, for me. Iron levels, DHEA, everything else was okay.

I'm wondering if I should see my cardiologist. I'm just so freaking tired, exhausted and weak. I've been getting more skippy heart feelings, etc... It's just such a pain to be going back and forth to the dr since going back to work.

I'm just at a loss. I was so praying that this would be an easy fix. I'm so scared that it is my heart.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Thank YOU!!

I am so incredibly blessed to have the greatest in-laws ever. I have not been feeling well for a month and have been unable to keep up with housework. Today, my mother-in-law sent her cleaning ladies over and they cleaned my house from top to bottom (even the places that I dare not venture when I do clean!). I was brought to tears today when I thought about all the times they have been there for us and how they welcomed Ainsley and I into their family like we had always been a part of them. They are truly the family I always dreamed to be a part of and we are so blessed.

Thank you for being there for me throughout this entire illness and going back to work. I love you both!!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Be Still And Know That I Am God

Since I have a new layout, I should post.

Work has gone much better than I ever expected, which is definitely an answered prayer! Ains had some problems adjusting at first, but she is happy as can be now. We are still catching up financially, but I think when I finally have my own health insurance in December, we will be in much better shape. We are tired of being poor!!

My health has held up beautifully, until sometime last week. I had noticed that "rolling downhill" feeling and now I am pretty sure that I am back to being hypo. I am getting better at riding the roller coaster, but it is still frustrating. It is such a delicate balance of meds... Not enough thryoid, off the heart medicine, too much thyroid, back on the heart medicine. Not to mention the panic attacks and tiredness. I do not freak out near as bad as I used to, but yesterday I actually fell asleep at my desk, then went to my mom's hosue and slept as my nephew and daughter ran around screaming. My mom was amazed that I slept through it. :)

I go to the doctor today, so hopefully it is just an easy adjustment of my thyroid meds. Sometimes, I think that surgery would have been better than the radiation. But, it's a done deal, looking back does no good.

The one good thing is that during these yucky times, I do grow closer to God. I usually feel so icky and down that it's just Him and me trying to work through it. I was reminded yesterday to not get anxious and panicky about my health, just to be still and let Him heal me.