Random Thoughts and Streams of Consciousness

I wish every week was a 4 day week! I love having more time at home.

Praying, begging, pleading with God about Ainsley's appointment today.

I prefer not to think about, or deal with, the news of not being able to have more children.

God is opening my heart and filling me with Crazy Love.

I am tired of spats with my in-laws. Why is it so hard to just "get along." I feel like I will never succeed in those relationships.

Newsflash: Everything is NOT our fault!

I need to lose 20 pounds for my health, and don't know where to even start.

I realized on Saturday, that I should have been there for a friend, and I have not.

It felt good to talk to someone about things that I keep hidden so far down inside...things that never get talked about.

Still do not know what to do about our church situation. It's like the song "Do we stay or do we go now?"

If Ainsley does have this dreaded autoimmune disease, I want to stay home full-time and take care of her and help her get her health back, and teach her how to manage. I guess we would actually be teaching each other.

I do not think that anyone realizes that Nick and Linley leaving is having a huge impact on Ainsley right now. It upsets me that no one has thought of her in all of this.

Lately, I have wanted to connect with a half-sister and half-brother that I have never met before.